November 2010
WatchADRIANA LIMA I WANT TO BE YOU.
I have good friends and family.
I don’t need anybody else.
YAY.
I have a job. I will no longer be poor. I work with Paige. This is just awesome.
My daddy is getting better, he might even be able to come home tomorrow! I’m happy about this.
I thought I saw you today. My heart almost pounded out of my chest. How can you do that to me? I cannot keep doing this. You treat me like shit, and you don’t even realize it. I don’t think you get it....
Nervous.
NAHHHH
IDGAF
Yesterday was nice.
Kenny and I went to Moes. I missed him, he’s a funny guy. Then we came back here and hung out. I feel like shit about everything, but I can’t do much else. He’s such a good guy. He’s gonna make somebody so fucking happy someday. PS; Moes was good. Burritos the size of small babies.
I go back to Herkimer today. Kind of excited, but this break went by waaaayyy too fast. I...
torn between two feelings.
I want you all to myself, because I can’t deal with the extra bull shit.
I was absolutely belligerent last night. I had soooo much fun, and saw so many good people, and took sooo many good shots. I love being home with nights like that.
drunk
and idk how i’m feelinh currentlty. took too many shots and drank too much beer. and now there will be too much puke :(
Oh hello cute boy.
;)
I STILL GOT IT.
My dad is in the hospital on Thanksgiving.
Awesome. Happy Thanksgiving.
I get sick when I think about you.
I get sad when I think about how that girl broke your heart and made you a total asshole. I sort of have an idea of who you used to be, because deep down I know you’re a good guy. I wish I had you when you were with her. I would never take advantage of you, or break your heart. I wish you knew this, but I have far too much pride.
She doesnt ever worry, if she wants it she’ll get it on her own She knows there’s more to life, and shes scared of ending up alone
I don't need you, but I hate that you feel like...
Maybe we need a break from each other, which is why I’m glad it’s Thanksgiving break. Maybe I am over thinking things, and I’m way too insecure. Things are definitely different though, you’ve got to be kidding when you say you don’t see it. I just hope you realize what you’re missing while we’re apart. I hope you don’t just forget about me. I...
I hope my dad gets better.
I hate seeing him like this more than anything.
I hope things get better.
We had a really good week and now I feel like we’re back to where we started. I’m going to try to change things. I really want you to be nice. I want you to want to kiss me and hug me. Ugh I don’t know.
What’s on my mind right now: Nothing is going on tonight in Herkimer? Well nothing that I would be interested in. I’m not trying to go to the Hideout. No thanks. I...
I'm not going anywhere.
a certain look to your eyes
when you open your eyes
who’ll stand by your side?
so watch my eyes
watch them turn as you change
curtains down, when all their skill was cut
and i bled, there were forces of john jones.
i can’t make you happy
it seems all i can ever do is try
you can never cut me deep enough to leave a scar
so take this gift, it’s something to save.
drunk adn sleeping in my own bed. this doesn’t happen. i haven’t been in this bed in so long. i feel weird using this toothbrush, and being here. i live here and i feel weird. i feel like i fucked up today. i feel like you don’t care about me enough to think about where i’m at.
courtney came today. she saved me from having the shittiest night ever. me and tom raged all...
I fucked you over.
and now I got fucked over. Karma’s a bitch hahaha. shit kenny, you win. Hope you feel good.
I really wonder why I hang out with you. You make me insecure. You make me feel weird. You make me feel like shit. I’m a complete bitch to you because I don’t want to let myself fall for you. It’s so weird because everyday I’m torn between two feelings. Sometimes I just want to leave and shut my feelings off completely. Other times I feel like this really could be...
I don't know how I feel.
I wish I knew what you were thinking.
Christmas present.
I am excited to get another tattoo for Christmas. I already have it thought out and I know what I want. Want to call Dustin immediately and make another appointment. :)
Januart 17th is my appointmenttttt I’m pumped about it.
Memories of you
are really mind fucking me. You’ll never guess who this is about.
I am satisfied, I think.
I like you, but I still have my guard up. I won’t completely trust you until you prove yourself to me. I’m not even sure if you will, but I like kissing your face, it’s something I’m not used to. It’s something I could get used to. Something I hope to get used to. I hope to god you don’t read this. I don’t think many people to. Only Bre Morin. :) ps;...
Tonight is going to be insane.
No classes tomorrow, so tonight calls for BLACKOUT. The family is eating tacos tonight, going to slam poets, then HAAAAMMMEREDDDDDD. I will most likely end up at Ace’s. I still hate myself.
I want to give a shout out to Bre Morin, cause I know she’ll read this. Love ya girl.
I skyped with Nick today.
It was nice. I miss him, but I don’t need to cry anymore.
So please accept my apology. I finally feel like I’m back to normal I feel like me again, let me formally Reintroduce myself to you for those of you who don’t know no The new me’s back to the old me and homie I don’t show no Signs of slowin’ up.
I am confused.
I don’t know why I’m even bothering with you. You are a very different person, different from anyone I’ve ever met before. All I know is that I don’t want to sleep in this bed alone. I don’t want to sleep in this bed at all. I want to cuddle and be warm, and not be here. I don’t know why I’d continue to go for a guy who openly expresses that he is talking...
I can't believe my life right now.
I fucking hate everything.
What do you want from me?
“I want to tickle you forever.”
My lifeeeeeee.....
I’m about to get myself into some shit… I am currently in American History. I don’t even bring my notebook to this class anymore. I legit text Tom and the kid who sits behind me the entire time. I’m thinking about one thing right now. I’m thinking about last night, and the things you said to me. Really, I’m nervous, but I’ll be okay.
I like spending time...
Yah, I like you.
A lot.
busy busy busy...
I feel like I don’t have time to do anything. I hate all of my classes. I haven’t been doing any work for any of my classes. My weekend started Thursday. I got hammered every night, and always ended up at Ace’s at the end of the night. I met their friends from the city. I actually had a lot of fun with them. I HAVE to start doing my work. I’m really sucking at school....
