December 2010
deuces 2010... faaack off.
2010 was by far the shittiest year thus far. I got my heart ripped out, stomped on, put in a blender, and that sucked. I’ve never felt so worthless in my life. I remember wanting to die this entire year. Not caring about anything but you. Realizing who my real friends are. I got drunk at school close to 4 times a week, sometimes more. I had the most fun I’ve had in a long time. I made...
6312.) Sometimes I wonder how easy it was for you...
UGHHGDHGKJSDHGJKDG
I need to be skinny so I can buy clothes that actually look good on me. Shit, this is like 11th grade all over again. FUCK. So frustrated with myself.
Also; can’t stop thinking about how different I was a year ago. I was truly happy. Wonder if I’ll ever feel like that again.
Thinking-
about way too many things right now. Going to sleep. I really just don’t want to wake up tomorrow.
I feel so much better.
different.
I am Queens Boulevard.
keep walking away
keep walking away
keep walking away
keep walking away
keep walking away
keep walking away
keep walking away
So last night -
Bre and I were talking about something you said to me. She said, “Wouldn’t you be sad?” I said, “I’d be relieved.”
I don’t know what the fuck I was thinking.
I did the same thing to him as you're doing to me.
And he did to me, and he did to me. According to Einstein I am technically insane.
I miss falling asleep with you.
I can't even imagine NOT celebrating Christmas.
It makes me sad to think that people don’t have fun like I do. Every year, it’s the same. Christmas Eve we open our stockings. Christmas morning we wake up and open presents. Then we go across the street and eat foods. Then we all nap until we booze later on. My entire family, playing drinking games, and titties titties. I have such a good family. I am happy right now, and I...
Just thought about..
how much I am going to miss Wednesday nights in East Herk. They will never be the same. Sad.
idc
anymore
I promised myself I'd never feel this fucking way...
I’m reading my old livejournal. It’s kind of mind blowing. I’m doing the same thing right now, as I was for the past 3 years with 3 different people. Why don’t I learn? I build up all this faith and then it gets ripped out from under me. I believe in too much, and get disappointed in the end. I wrote about how you’d always ask me to hang out and then not get ahold of...
No.
no.
This is too much
My daddy is home. I am happy. He’s been in the pital for over a month now. I am soooo happy he’s home for Christmas and we can sit around all day and watch game shows together!! :)
Christmas should be exciting. Good family, good presents, good drinks. All I want for Christmas is a god damn full body massage. For real.
You’re constantly on my mind. I’m going back and...
Theres a reason why I write down more than I tell...
So annoyed with you.
That I don’t even really feel like hanging out with you that much anymore. I wish every night could be like last night. Richard, Bre, Ant, Vicki… more tequila. I had a lot of fun last night. I’m glad Bre and I have been hanging out a lot lately. She’s my best friend and one of the very few people I actually trust. I can stand her for long periods of time… so this...
I'm sorry. I'm bored as fuck.
Will you be single over winter?
probably.
How old is the last person you kissed?
21.
Has someone ever made a promise and broke it?
absolutely.
How often do you say you’re sorry?
when i’m wrong.
Do you think someone likes the same person you like?
probably.
Would you eat a live tarantula for $1,000?
fuck no.
This time last year, do you remember who you liked?
uhh...
This break is going to be so slow.
I already kinda miss you.
HAHA
“come whenever, you can sleep and chill in my apt while im at work haha
and by chill i mean you better have dinner on the fucking table when i walk in the god damn door” -Terry Connell
sparks fly- taylor swift
it’s my favorite t swift song, and it reminds me of you.
This is the saddest day ever.
oh shut the fuck up.
I gotta have you one more time, just one more...
So Nick deleted me off Facebook today. It doesn’t bother me in the least bit, honestly. I was planning on deleting him anyways, due to his annoying posts. I’m just not sure why he would considering we were good a couple weeks ago. The only thing that replays in my mind is that I’m going to randomly think about my first boyfriend, my first love, and I’m not going to know...
Last night was funnnn.
Good people, games, Tenacious D, and some gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooodkush
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him.
Dead on.
My horoscope:
The current tension between your thoughts and your feelings can be confusing as the facts pull one way and your desires pull you in another direction. Unfortunately, the data that you’re receiving now isn’t very stable. Something that seems to be true today might turn out to be false tomorrow. Even if you want to believe your rational analysis, it’s smarter to...
I hope you read this.
First off, let me just say how weird it is that before I moved out, when something would bother me, I wanted to be anywhere but home. Now when things bother me, all I want to do is be home.. with my family and my friends. Real people who give a fuck about how I feel and what is going on. I drove home at 12 am. I am in my own bed. I was just with my brothers, Vicki, Jaime, Richard, and Ron (?)...